Friday, December 15, 2006
Scheduled happiness
Seasonally, this is the time to be full of joy. But instead, mankind seems to be weighed down with overwhelming sadness. Deeply profound and heart wrenchingly depressed, mankind is more than just wallowing, it’s in sludge. Christmas time is one of those holidays that seeps out the ache in a life. The loneliness and sorrow that can be concealed throughout the rest of the year find crevices and like lava coats self-esteem and levels any emotional strength. When the smoke clears all that is left is a hardened layer of Paho’eho’e.
Why is it that Christmas is a time of desolation? I don’t think it really has to do with Christ. He was a pretty nice guy, very accepting of prostitutes and the like. And I am pretty sure that the whole tree and presents thing isn’t the problem. Sure it sucks when you don’t get the flash bang of a big Christmas, but really how much of that is real and how much of that is a Hollywood concept? And once Christmas is over, there is Valentine’s day sitting around the corner just waiting to poke you in the eye.
For me, this time of year is all about me. The best things that happen to me, happen around this season. Bruce and I are coming up on our 1 year. My birthday is coming. I get mounds of presents. I tend to rate this time of year as falling between good and great.
I don’t know why I felt compelled to say this, I just wanted everyone who doesn’t feel depressed this time of year, I’m okay and you’re okay.